Saturday, March 31, 2012
Why Do They Let Madmen Design Playground Equipment?
There is a park at the end of our street, and I am blessed enough to have a husband who actually loves taking the kids there. So the other day as I was battling traffic on I95, Peter took Emmie to the park. Now, this park is nice, basically just a lot of grass, a swing and a slide. The grass is great for running, the swing super for swinging, but the slide was designed by a madman! It looks harmless. Unsuspecting mothers put their little ones on the top and watch adoringly as they slide down, all happy and proud, until they come to the middle. When the sweet child hits the mid point on this slide there is a bump. Well, it's more than a bump... more like a hillock(thank you Thesaurus). At the moment of contact the child is usually catapulted(depending on the weight of the child) either to the bottom of the slide or completely off the slide into the dirt below.
Knowing this from my previous experience with this slide many years ago, when I was the unsuspecting mother, waving one moment and then in the next moment, gasping as my tongue was hurled out of my mouth screaming , "OMG"!!! as I saw my child (very light in weight) catapulted up and and up, then down and down. Bumpedy, bump bump, into the dirt.
After that, the kids knew to venture very slowly and carefully down that possessed slide. And above all, NEVER LET THE BABY NEAR IT!
Here are some pictures I found on the camera, taken by Dad at the park, with the baby, ON THE SLIDE! They gave me chest pains!!
Rule one that was broken, letting her climb the stairs alone. They are steep and narrow. She could fall through the bars which were , remember , designed by a madman! There is no room for era. If she changes her mind half way up and wants to come down there is also no room to turn around. She would definitely tumble down.
And here she is contemplating coming back down! Or just falling off the top of the side which has no bars at all!
Notice Dad is a safe distance away and would be able to capture the whole disaster in photos, from his front row seat.
And here she is ready to descend. See the bump! See the empty safe baby swing! Understand the chest pains! Notice dad is still a safe distance away. Probably smiling and waving... so proud of his little girl!
Also, notice there are no more pictures. Hmmm I wonder why??? Although no one is talking and according to Daddy, Emilia has gone up and down this slide by herself a million times!
"Sigh"
And knowing Emilia, she probably has. All my other kids have learned the hard way about the slide built by the lunatic who hates kids. They all have had sore bottoms, dirt in their mouths, and terror in their eyes thanks to that slide. But maybe, just maybe that old slide has met it's match with Emilia Faith ;)
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Carina's Hope is Coming Along!!
April is Carina's birth month. She will be turning four years old. FOUR,that is the ripe old age when transfer to an adult mental institution for orphans like Carina begins.
I am trying desperately to prevent that from happening. The only thing that can save Sweet Carina from a fate that seems already sealed, is a family.
Unfortunately she does not have one yet.
But there is still hope!
With the help of some amazing and generous friends I have been putting together a giveaway for Carina.
It will be simple and sweet just like her.
My hope is that if her account grows, a family will come forward. I know money is the biggest obstacle there is when considering international adoption.
I'm going to need your help when this giveaway begins. I'm going to need help spreading it all over!
I need as many new people to see her as possible.
Time is of the essence.
I am still taking any donations you might like to add to the giveaway. It's not too late:)
If you'd like to offer something just send me an email Rarefindings@verizon.net
Please help me save her!!
I am trying desperately to prevent that from happening. The only thing that can save Sweet Carina from a fate that seems already sealed, is a family.
Unfortunately she does not have one yet.
But there is still hope!
With the help of some amazing and generous friends I have been putting together a giveaway for Carina.
It will be simple and sweet just like her.
My hope is that if her account grows, a family will come forward. I know money is the biggest obstacle there is when considering international adoption.
I'm going to need your help when this giveaway begins. I'm going to need help spreading it all over!
I need as many new people to see her as possible.
Time is of the essence.
I am still taking any donations you might like to add to the giveaway. It's not too late:)
If you'd like to offer something just send me an email Rarefindings@verizon.net
Please help me save her!!
Carina |
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Teamwork Tuesday: Sophia K
Here is Sophia !! Perfect and beautiful in every way.
Date of Birth: November 2007
Gender: Female
Eyes: Gray
Hair: brown
Nature: Quiet
Miss Sophia is a real doll baby too! She was born with an oval
window, and she does have some strabismus, but she is growing well and
is a happy and content child.
$2708.50
is available towards the cost of my adoption!
For over four years she has been waiting for her family to find her! That's too long.
Monday, March 26, 2012
I Couldn't Wait
Look at the Princess!!
Did you lose your breath? I did when I saw it. A sweet FB friend who also loves Carina made this. I can't stop looking at it.
I want everyone to see this and fall in love with this Beauty!!!
Her mama is out there, her birthday is in April. She will be turning 4 and she will be alone. Transfer to an adult mental institution is in her near future. And a giveaway for her is coming!!
Please pray it all comes together in time for Carina.
Did you lose your breath? I did when I saw it. A sweet FB friend who also loves Carina made this. I can't stop looking at it.
I want everyone to see this and fall in love with this Beauty!!!
Her mama is out there, her birthday is in April. She will be turning 4 and she will be alone. Transfer to an adult mental institution is in her near future. And a giveaway for her is coming!!
Please pray it all comes together in time for Carina.
Friday, March 23, 2012
Nuts or Normal??
You've got to have a sense of humor to keep your sanity (Quote by - Lance Bass)
I keep telling myself that! Especially this week. It all started when I picked up a copy of Readers Digest. I was lured in by the title on the cover, " Are you Normal or Nuts." I am morbidly attracted to articles like this. I've been accused of standing slightly left of center at times and I guess I was looking for some solid evidence that my "nuts" is somehow normal. After reading the article I decided their nuts was more normal than I'll ever be and settled into accepting my self diagnosis of crazy lady.
Just as I was coming to terms with this I realized Miss Em was missing. I was so into reading that she obviously took this opportunity to high tail it to the forbidden room... the bathroom. I thought I had heard a door shut but dismissed it as "something I don't feel like dealing with right now". That was my first mistake.
Because Miss Em was in the bathroom, with the toilet... and the cat litter.
As I entered the room, I was frozen by the site within. I felt a blood curdling scream rising from my toes and making it's way up through my body, gaining momentum as it rose higher looking for a way out. I knew if I let that scream out, windows would shatter, car alarms would be going off and dogs would be running for high hills to bark at the moon.
With every fiber of my being I stifled that scream, turned around slowly and left the bathroom. .. for my camera of course. As I passed by Peter, i told him I would be needing his help in a moment.
The damage was done, may as well document it. Below is lunacy at it's best. The video is brief but the audio that follows is riveting. Yes I thought the camera was off.
*Heads up, I did say the "S" word. Considering the circumstances I am amazed it wasn't an array of more colorful words. And if you don't find this at least mildly amusing , you are much too sane and need to loosen up ;)
I keep telling myself that! Especially this week. It all started when I picked up a copy of Readers Digest. I was lured in by the title on the cover, " Are you Normal or Nuts." I am morbidly attracted to articles like this. I've been accused of standing slightly left of center at times and I guess I was looking for some solid evidence that my "nuts" is somehow normal. After reading the article I decided their nuts was more normal than I'll ever be and settled into accepting my self diagnosis of crazy lady.
Just as I was coming to terms with this I realized Miss Em was missing. I was so into reading that she obviously took this opportunity to high tail it to the forbidden room... the bathroom. I thought I had heard a door shut but dismissed it as "something I don't feel like dealing with right now". That was my first mistake.
Because Miss Em was in the bathroom, with the toilet... and the cat litter.
As I entered the room, I was frozen by the site within. I felt a blood curdling scream rising from my toes and making it's way up through my body, gaining momentum as it rose higher looking for a way out. I knew if I let that scream out, windows would shatter, car alarms would be going off and dogs would be running for high hills to bark at the moon.
With every fiber of my being I stifled that scream, turned around slowly and left the bathroom. .. for my camera of course. As I passed by Peter, i told him I would be needing his help in a moment.
The damage was done, may as well document it. Below is lunacy at it's best. The video is brief but the audio that follows is riveting. Yes I thought the camera was off.
*Heads up, I did say the "S" word. Considering the circumstances I am amazed it wasn't an array of more colorful words. And if you don't find this at least mildly amusing , you are much too sane and need to loosen up ;)
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
World Down Syndrome Day... Make Someone Aware!
Today is the seventh World Down Syndrome Day and the very first time it is being officially observed by the United Nations!!
Down syndrome is also called Trisomy 21. Simply meaning the 21st chromosome is tripled. There are two sets of each chromosome equally 46, a person with Down syndrome pulled the hat trick and just tripled their 21st chromosome, giving them a total of 47 chromosomes. That is why today March 21st was chosen to be WDSD. The third month and 21st day. Clever, eh?
So what do you do today??? Celebrate! And raise awareness!!!
What if you don't have a child or know anyone with Ds?? What can you do today?
Celebrate and raise awareness anyway! Educate yourself or a friend. If you have questions about Ds, ask them. Read a book. Do something. Speak up against the R word.
Here are some excellent websites.
WDSD.org
NDSS
NDSC
This is the face of Down syndrome! She is not scary, or stupid, or retarded.
She is the same as you and me, only better. Because she loves more, laughs more and forgives more.
She is "special". But not because she is slower or does not understand. She is special because she will achieve everything she sets out to do, with bold determination . Her understanding is not beneath ours but so high above us it touches heaven.
Reach out today, educate, be educated, be aware!
Down syndrome is not what most people perceive it to be. It is not awful and scary and the "end"!
On the contrary, our lives didn't truly begin until our family had Emilia in it.
Down syndrome is also called Trisomy 21. Simply meaning the 21st chromosome is tripled. There are two sets of each chromosome equally 46, a person with Down syndrome pulled the hat trick and just tripled their 21st chromosome, giving them a total of 47 chromosomes. That is why today March 21st was chosen to be WDSD. The third month and 21st day. Clever, eh?
So what do you do today??? Celebrate! And raise awareness!!!
What if you don't have a child or know anyone with Ds?? What can you do today?
Celebrate and raise awareness anyway! Educate yourself or a friend. If you have questions about Ds, ask them. Read a book. Do something. Speak up against the R word.
Here are some excellent websites.
WDSD.org
NDSS
NDSC
This is the face of Down syndrome! She is not scary, or stupid, or retarded.
She is the same as you and me, only better. Because she loves more, laughs more and forgives more.
She is "special". But not because she is slower or does not understand. She is special because she will achieve everything she sets out to do, with bold determination . Her understanding is not beneath ours but so high above us it touches heaven.
Reach out today, educate, be educated, be aware!
Down syndrome is not what most people perceive it to be. It is not awful and scary and the "end"!
On the contrary, our lives didn't truly begin until our family had Emilia in it.
Monday, March 19, 2012
What Can We Do With A Sippy Cup???
A Sippy Cup??
Well, the goal would be to get this Dumpling Fully funded and home!
This is Natasha(Xenia). She is being adopted by The Morse Family. They are getting very close!! Time is of the essence because Miss Natasha needs surgery. I've posted this before but just in case you missed it I'll say it again. She is not well. She needs heart surgery , everything on this side of the ocean is ready for her. Surgeons, hospital, and family.
Her mom Priscilla, has not stopped for a second. She has been moving like a freight train to bring Natasha home.
This is what she's up to now. And if we get enough people on board I do believe The Morse Family can do the Fully Funded Dance!
Just fill that sippy with change.
Without even trying you produce change almost everyday. If I walk around my house, I will find it all over the place. Have a scavenger hunt and put it in the sippy!! The more people who participate the faster Natasha gets that life saving surgery!!!
Priscilla will even send you the sippy!! Now hows that for service!
This is Priscilla's email. Priscilla.morse@gmail.com
Just drop her a message with your name and address and she'll send you a sippy.
The change collecting will run until April 25th and you can deposit your change into the Morse Family chip in here.
This is going to help cover the cost of Visas.
Well, the goal would be to get this Dumpling Fully funded and home!
This is Natasha(Xenia). She is being adopted by The Morse Family. They are getting very close!! Time is of the essence because Miss Natasha needs surgery. I've posted this before but just in case you missed it I'll say it again. She is not well. She needs heart surgery , everything on this side of the ocean is ready for her. Surgeons, hospital, and family.
Her mom Priscilla, has not stopped for a second. She has been moving like a freight train to bring Natasha home.
This is what she's up to now. And if we get enough people on board I do believe The Morse Family can do the Fully Funded Dance!
Just fill that sippy with change.
Without even trying you produce change almost everyday. If I walk around my house, I will find it all over the place. Have a scavenger hunt and put it in the sippy!! The more people who participate the faster Natasha gets that life saving surgery!!!
Priscilla will even send you the sippy!! Now hows that for service!
This is Priscilla's email. Priscilla.morse@gmail.com
Just drop her a message with your name and address and she'll send you a sippy.
The change collecting will run until April 25th and you can deposit your change into the Morse Family chip in here.
This is going to help cover the cost of Visas.
Friday, March 16, 2012
Vroom, Vroom
Video games!!! Moms not looking and I got this one all to myself!!
Hey, I'm the driver!!! I'm not sitting back here!! Let me show you how it's done!
That's more like it, now let's see how fast this baby can go!
The little boy above, who goes to school with Andrew, was not injured. He graciously conceded and gave Em the front seat:)
Hey, I'm the driver!!! I'm not sitting back here!! Let me show you how it's done!
That's more like it, now let's see how fast this baby can go!
The little boy above, who goes to school with Andrew, was not injured. He graciously conceded and gave Em the front seat:)
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Venting Over... Now Just Fluffy and Cute
Thank you for the emails and PM's. We all get fed up, frustrated, and annoyed. I'm no different. My blog is my place and I've said from day one , I won't be anything here that I'm not anywhere else. I'm just me.
My heart is good, my patience... not so good.
So here's some of that fluffy and cute stuff I mentioned yesterday.
It's okay to laugh. We all did. On some days she is definitely here to amuse us.
Hysterical part is, this Chick loved this crazy get up. This photo is blurry(because she is clapping for herself) but I still had to post it. She looks like a beetle bug!
She is seriously ready to take on the world in this outfit.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Extreme Venting!
Right now I feel like I'm about to pop! So if you all don't mind I'm going to let off some steam! If you mind then maybe this post isn't for you.
Come back another day when I have something fluffy and cute to post about.
This girls time is running out! Carina is turning four next month. Four years and no one has ever asked about her!
SERIOUSLY!
Why because she's not smiling? Well seriously people, do you think she looks like that all the time? Can't you use your imagination and just see her gorgeous smile, the twinkle in her eye?
My head hurts from trying to think of ways to make everyone see what I see when I look at her.
She is a stunning beauty!
She has over 4000.00 in her account.
She is perfect. Damn it why is she still waiting!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When I picked Carina, to be a Reece's Rainbow Warrior for, I really thought she's be scooped up quickly. In November when I chose her, I really thought that by April, she would be well on her way home.
I NEVER thought she's still be sitting , and waiting and not even have one inquiry!!!
This pisses me off! Why are people looking past her? Has anyone ever even lingered at her photo??
And you know what else kind of gets me in a tither! Why in the hell did God go and turn my heart into mush for these kids when I cannot do damn thing for them!!!!
Why did He let me fall in love with children I can never have, never hold. And on top of it I cannot even financially do squat for them because we are barley keeping a roof over our heads!
God asks too much sometimes! He expects too much!
I'm so freaking mad today!
If we qualified Carina would be coming home! And Samantha and Kristina!
I'm sick of hearing people say,"I wish I could do something"
When I hear that, it seriously makes me want to throw up!!!!!
Then get off your a$$ and do something! Anything is better than nothing! Can you write, can you form words , than you can do something!!!! Write , blog, make an effort! Don't just "wish" you could do something.
EVERYONE BREATHING CAN DO SOMETHING!
That's why you are still breathing!!!
God's not ready for you yet, because you still have something to do!!!!
And believe me I'm not speaking to any one in particular! No one I know has gotten me into this mood. So please don't take this post personally! Just pretend we're out having coffee... or something stronger! You can even add your thoughts. I'm just venting to the only friends who understand!
Because that's another thing!
NO ONE FREAKIN GETS IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No one wants to hear it!
My husband gets it, but that poor thing , "get's it " from me every day! He deserves a break.
What do people do if the subject comes up? I get ... "Oh those poor babies", then in the next breath, " Oh, guess what I just bought (that I spent too much money on and don't really need and will end up in the back of my closet, but sorry I can't donate right now, because we're saving money to spend on more things we don't need and will never use) Kiss kiss bye, bye, talk to you later,let me know if I can help, love you! "
More vomit!
And no I'm not against buying things! And I'm not judging people who do.I love shopping! What makes me crazy is that those are usually the people who won't part with five dollars, because they just can't afford it. But they have a carload of crap they just bought at the mall, and are making plans to go out for dinner.
I hate that!!!!!
Sooo,
I think the throbbing in my head is subsiding. I'm still ticked but I so needed this venting session!
If you stuck with me to the end, thanks. I really didn't expect anyone to read all the way through. I really just needed to get this all off my chest.
The only ones home right now are Andrew, Emmie and the cat. And I wasn't going to hold their attention with any of this.
I guess everyone has days like this. I have many but usually can shake it off. But sometimes that crazy Italian blood I've got starts to boil. Ok, lots of times! But Peter is usually around to use as a punching bag.
Thanks for rolling with me today!
And please say a quick prayer for Carina. I know at any second God can move all mountains and bring her home! There is always hope, I just don't want her to see the inside of an institution, not even for a second!
Come back another day when I have something fluffy and cute to post about.
This girls time is running out! Carina is turning four next month. Four years and no one has ever asked about her!
SERIOUSLY!
Why because she's not smiling? Well seriously people, do you think she looks like that all the time? Can't you use your imagination and just see her gorgeous smile, the twinkle in her eye?
My head hurts from trying to think of ways to make everyone see what I see when I look at her.
She is a stunning beauty!
She has over 4000.00 in her account.
She is perfect. Damn it why is she still waiting!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When I picked Carina, to be a Reece's Rainbow Warrior for, I really thought she's be scooped up quickly. In November when I chose her, I really thought that by April, she would be well on her way home.
I NEVER thought she's still be sitting , and waiting and not even have one inquiry!!!
This pisses me off! Why are people looking past her? Has anyone ever even lingered at her photo??
And you know what else kind of gets me in a tither! Why in the hell did God go and turn my heart into mush for these kids when I cannot do damn thing for them!!!!
Why did He let me fall in love with children I can never have, never hold. And on top of it I cannot even financially do squat for them because we are barley keeping a roof over our heads!
God asks too much sometimes! He expects too much!
I'm so freaking mad today!
If we qualified Carina would be coming home! And Samantha and Kristina!
I'm sick of hearing people say,"I wish I could do something"
When I hear that, it seriously makes me want to throw up!!!!!
Then get off your a$$ and do something! Anything is better than nothing! Can you write, can you form words , than you can do something!!!! Write , blog, make an effort! Don't just "wish" you could do something.
EVERYONE BREATHING CAN DO SOMETHING!
That's why you are still breathing!!!
God's not ready for you yet, because you still have something to do!!!!
And believe me I'm not speaking to any one in particular! No one I know has gotten me into this mood. So please don't take this post personally! Just pretend we're out having coffee... or something stronger! You can even add your thoughts. I'm just venting to the only friends who understand!
Because that's another thing!
NO ONE FREAKIN GETS IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No one wants to hear it!
My husband gets it, but that poor thing , "get's it " from me every day! He deserves a break.
What do people do if the subject comes up? I get ... "Oh those poor babies", then in the next breath, " Oh, guess what I just bought (that I spent too much money on and don't really need and will end up in the back of my closet, but sorry I can't donate right now, because we're saving money to spend on more things we don't need and will never use) Kiss kiss bye, bye, talk to you later,let me know if I can help, love you! "
More vomit!
And no I'm not against buying things! And I'm not judging people who do.I love shopping! What makes me crazy is that those are usually the people who won't part with five dollars, because they just can't afford it. But they have a carload of crap they just bought at the mall, and are making plans to go out for dinner.
I hate that!!!!!
Sooo,
I think the throbbing in my head is subsiding. I'm still ticked but I so needed this venting session!
If you stuck with me to the end, thanks. I really didn't expect anyone to read all the way through. I really just needed to get this all off my chest.
The only ones home right now are Andrew, Emmie and the cat. And I wasn't going to hold their attention with any of this.
I guess everyone has days like this. I have many but usually can shake it off. But sometimes that crazy Italian blood I've got starts to boil. Ok, lots of times! But Peter is usually around to use as a punching bag.
Thanks for rolling with me today!
And please say a quick prayer for Carina. I know at any second God can move all mountains and bring her home! There is always hope, I just don't want her to see the inside of an institution, not even for a second!
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
$15,048.14
What does that amount mean? $15,048.14
It's a lot of money.
It could pay a lot of bills.
Buy a car.
Down payment on a house.
Nice little nest egg.
Super vacation!
Yup $15,048.14 can do a lot of things.
This handsome man, has that money
Meet Preston. A gorgeous blue eyed blond haired boy, waiting. Waiting for his family to find him.
Preston has $15,048.14 available towards the cost of his adoption, and still he waits!
If money is what's holding you back, well Preston just took that obstacle out of the way.
Boy, born October 2005
Eyes: Blue
Hair: light brown
Character: smart, active, social
Preston is an orphanage favorite! He is 6 now and needs a family of his own. He does have a heart condition, but he is active and doing well despite this. His adenoids and tonsils are enlarged (very common) and should probably be removed.
Preston will be transferred to an Adult Mental Institution soon! With $15,048.14 in his account he is still facing being transferred!!!
This is hard for me to understand. Here is a beautiful child just waiting for a family, he is half way to being fully funded , so most of the stress of raising all those adoptions fees, has been erased. The leading cause for someone to not adopt, MONEY, is not an issue here.
So what is???
Is Preston your son?
Can you save this child from the Institution?
It's a lot of money.
It could pay a lot of bills.
Buy a car.
Down payment on a house.
Nice little nest egg.
Super vacation!
Yup $15,048.14 can do a lot of things.
This handsome man, has that money
Meet Preston. A gorgeous blue eyed blond haired boy, waiting. Waiting for his family to find him.
Preston has $15,048.14 available towards the cost of his adoption, and still he waits!
If money is what's holding you back, well Preston just took that obstacle out of the way.
Boy, born October 2005
Eyes: Blue
Hair: light brown
Character: smart, active, social
FACING IMMINENT INSTITUTIONALIZATION
Preston is an orphanage favorite! He is 6 now and needs a family of his own. He does have a heart condition, but he is active and doing well despite this. His adenoids and tonsils are enlarged (very common) and should probably be removed.
Preston will be transferred to an Adult Mental Institution soon! With $15,048.14 in his account he is still facing being transferred!!!
This is hard for me to understand. Here is a beautiful child just waiting for a family, he is half way to being fully funded , so most of the stress of raising all those adoptions fees, has been erased. The leading cause for someone to not adopt, MONEY, is not an issue here.
So what is???
Is Preston your son?
Can you save this child from the Institution?
Ball Pit Flashback
I was looking through the ever growing collection of ball pit photos and found one from the "original pit".
It really made Em's hair stand on end!
She is completely unconcerned and totally content in her beloved pit.
And H, the new one is working out perfectly!!! And I dare say it may take a trip outside this week, it's going to be in the 60's !!
It really made Em's hair stand on end!
She is completely unconcerned and totally content in her beloved pit.
And H, the new one is working out perfectly!!! And I dare say it may take a trip outside this week, it's going to be in the 60's !!
Monday, March 12, 2012
All Of Me
All Of Me lyrics and music video provided by SongLyrics.com
" Afraid to love
Something that could break
Could I move on
If you were torn away?
And I'm so close to what I can't control
I can't give you half my heart
And pray He makes you whole"
Something that could break
Could I move on
If you were torn away?
And I'm so close to what I can't control
I can't give you half my heart
And pray He makes you whole"
Powerful words don't you think? The first time I heard this song by Matt Hammitt, I couldn't relate to it. He wrote it about his son who was born with a very serious heart condition.
I felt bad and prayed his son would be okay, but I felt I had nothing in common with Matt's obvious concerns about his son. Then one day I was in the car waiting for the girls, and this song came on. This time I listened , really listened to the words and it hit me like a ton of bricks.
This is exactly how I felt, before Emilia was born. I was afraid to love her. What if I gave my heart away and she didn't make it. Like the doctors kept telling me... 75% die in utero.
"I won't let sadness steal you from my arms
I won't let pain keep you from my heart
I'll trade the fear of all that I could lose
For every moment I share with you "
I won't let pain keep you from my heart
I'll trade the fear of all that I could lose
For every moment I share with you "
I was letting sadness steal her! And my pain was keeping her from my heart. You know, I didn't buy her anything until I was almost at my due date. I would wander into the baby department and look, but I never bought anything. I was terrified to have any baby things in the house. God, just thinking about it brings all those emotions back to the surface and I can see now, what a mess I really was.
I was terrified of losing her, and terrified of having her.
This is so hard to think about. But I feel it's necessary. Anyone visiting my blog today, sees the end result. We are blessed and happy and we laugh everyday because of Emilia.
But the fears I had while I was pregnant were overwhelming and all consuming!
I was torn between wanting her and wanting to run away from her. There were days I felt incompetent, and some days I felt like I could take on the world. I wanted to get ready for her , but still felt I should be prepared to lose her. My heart, I kept locked up, while I tried to love her, but not get too attached.
It is impossible to keep all that up for any length of time and not go crazy!
And believe me , I had crazy covered!
And then she was born. She made it!
"Heaven brought you to this moment, it's too wonderful to speak
You're worth all of me, you're worth all of me
So let me recklessly love you, even if I bleed
You're worth all of me, you're worth all of me "
You're worth all of me, you're worth all of me
So let me recklessly love you, even if I bleed
You're worth all of me, you're worth all of me "
And I didn't even have to try. All those months of thinking I was protecting myself, my heart. My heart was hers! She took my breath away, and I haven't caught it yet!
You're gonna have all of me
You're gonna have all of me
'Cause you're worth every falling tear
You're worth facing any fear
You're gonna know all my love
Even if it's not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me is where I'll start
Emilia has all of me, everything I've got! I look at her and at times I'm so overwhelmed with love I have to turn away because it's just too much. I feel as though my heart cannot bear that much love all at once. All that love I tried to hold back when I was pregnant found it's way from me to her, a billion times over.
I long to reach out to mothers who are in the same shoes I was in. I so want to take your fears away. I want to dispel the ugly myths about Down syndrome and bring all it's beauty in to the light where it belongs. Because it is beauty I see every day in Emilia. Absolutely nothing else, but pure beauty. And I don't mean just her physical beauty. But the beauty within her that radiates outward and touches everyone around her.
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Friday, March 9, 2012
See Dmitry Today!!!
I had two posts I could have published today. One very serious and one very hysterical. Then my Norwegian buddy Helle, posted about her Reece's Rainbow Dumpling, Dmitry
I think he's beautiful! Some will look at him and see only imperfections. I see an almost six year old little boy, who has unlimited possibilities and endless potential!
Dmitry needs some exposure! He needs to be seen. Six long years he has been out of view, away from people, places, away from everything.
Today he is being seen. You are looking at him right now. I'm passing the baton to you.
Dmitry is in your hands. please put him somewhere that he will be seen.
If you are here, you have a computer. You have access to the world. Use it for good.
Blogs, FB, twitter, tumblr, google+ , linkedIn, delicious, pinterest, dig, you tube
And the list goes on and on.
Dmitry needs to go home. We can do that for him. People... people who will become his family, just need to know he exists!
It's not a hard job. We can do all from the comfort of our homes. Where we have all we need, to get Dmitry all he needs.
This post took me no more than 5- 10 minutes to get up and posted.
Do you have a few minutes to possibly save a life?
Of course you do.
I think he's beautiful! Some will look at him and see only imperfections. I see an almost six year old little boy, who has unlimited possibilities and endless potential!
Dmitry needs some exposure! He needs to be seen. Six long years he has been out of view, away from people, places, away from everything.
Today he is being seen. You are looking at him right now. I'm passing the baton to you.
Dmitry is in your hands. please put him somewhere that he will be seen.
If you are here, you have a computer. You have access to the world. Use it for good.
Blogs, FB, twitter, tumblr, google+ , linkedIn, delicious, pinterest, dig, you tube
And the list goes on and on.
Dmitry needs to go home. We can do that for him. People... people who will become his family, just need to know he exists!
It's not a hard job. We can do all from the comfort of our homes. Where we have all we need, to get Dmitry all he needs.
This post took me no more than 5- 10 minutes to get up and posted.
Do you have a few minutes to possibly save a life?
Of course you do.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
It's Never Too Late
Yesterday was the day I should have written this post, but I never did. So many great posts were written on the "word" that I felt it would just be redundant for me to write what was already written, and written so well by others.
BUT
I kind of rethought that thought, and I thought, that thought, was pretty thoughtless. Still following?
Did I just blow off a chance to advocate? ME?
Did I just let everyone else do something?
Did I just think that it didn't matter if I spoke up or not?
Holy Smoke, I did!!!
So here's my two cents on the The "word",a day late.
DON'T FREAKIN USE IT!!
Think about it
I didn't call you a retard when you tripped and fell over your own feet, so don't call my kid a retard for trying harder than anyone I know, to do everything.
Don't call your dishwasher retarded(something I was guilty of doing)Yes, I did. I'm not here to say I'm better because I don't use the word retard anymore, but I have been educated since the birth of my daughter. These are all my past faults.
Don't say, and I repeat, DO NOT say, "I didn't mean it that way" or "it's just a saying"
Hey Niggar, is a saying too, but you would jump into fire before uttering it to another human being because it is so damn offensive, degrading and hurtful. Guess what, "RETARD" is right up there with the "N" word.
This is my daughter Emilia
She is NOT a retard.
She IS perfection.
She IS joy.
And she IS the reason I had to write this post, even if it was a day late.
I have a responsibility to her to educate, advocate, and protect. I'm not dropping the ball on this one.
EVER!
BUT
I kind of rethought that thought, and I thought, that thought, was pretty thoughtless. Still following?
Did I just blow off a chance to advocate? ME?
Did I just let everyone else do something?
Did I just think that it didn't matter if I spoke up or not?
Holy Smoke, I did!!!
So here's my two cents on the The "word",a day late.
DON'T FREAKIN USE IT!!
Think about it
I didn't call you a retard when you tripped and fell over your own feet, so don't call my kid a retard for trying harder than anyone I know, to do everything.
Don't call your dishwasher retarded(something I was guilty of doing)Yes, I did. I'm not here to say I'm better because I don't use the word retard anymore, but I have been educated since the birth of my daughter. These are all my past faults.
Don't say, and I repeat, DO NOT say, "I didn't mean it that way" or "it's just a saying"
Hey Niggar, is a saying too, but you would jump into fire before uttering it to another human being because it is so damn offensive, degrading and hurtful. Guess what, "RETARD" is right up there with the "N" word.
This is my daughter Emilia
She is NOT a retard.
She IS perfection.
She IS joy.
And she IS the reason I had to write this post, even if it was a day late.
I have a responsibility to her to educate, advocate, and protect. I'm not dropping the ball on this one.
EVER!
How many licks does it take...
...to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop?
I don't know , but when she gets there she'll be glad to tell you.
*And because I know when Bella reads this she will want it to be know, that one day out of curiosity, she found out the answer. It took her 1200 licks to get to the center.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
More Poop. But Funny!
Ok remember the post I recently wrote titled , What's in the Bubbles?
Well I was looking through my photos this morning, seeing if I had anything to spark a post when I stopped to admire that great smile and star like eyes of my Dumpling in this photo. This photo was taken during the infamous poop bubble.
Moving in closer to look into those eyes and think how much I love her, I spotted something suspicious looking in that spot over her left shoulder, just where there is a break in the bubbles, and I just about died laughing!!!
If you don't think you have poop humor, please don't look! Just keep looking at her smiling face!
Little stinker cracks me up!!!
Well I was looking through my photos this morning, seeing if I had anything to spark a post when I stopped to admire that great smile and star like eyes of my Dumpling in this photo. This photo was taken during the infamous poop bubble.
Moving in closer to look into those eyes and think how much I love her, I spotted something suspicious looking in that spot over her left shoulder, just where there is a break in the bubbles, and I just about died laughing!!!
If you don't think you have poop humor, please don't look! Just keep looking at her smiling face!
Little stinker cracks me up!!!
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Teamwork Tuesday: Cyril The Great!!
I love this face!!!!!
Meet Cyril.. Cyril The Great!!
Date of Birth: December 2006
Gender: Male
Eyes: Brown
Hair: Black
Character: active, contact, calm, affectionate. Smiles. Babbles.
SINGLE MOMS WELCOME!
$2143.00
is available towards the cost of my adoption.
Not a whole lot of info on this Dumpling
Except that he is getting older, and looking more serious. But even his serious expression cannot hide his beauty. He is one handsome little man!
Can't you just get lost in those eyes!!
He needs a family to make him laugh again!!
Cyril The Great...waiting for ...you??
Other Teamwork children still waiting
Arina
Heath
Isaiah
Robert
Russell
Carina
Wyatt
Meet Cyril.. Cyril The Great!!
Cyril |
Gender: Male
Eyes: Brown
Hair: Black
Character: active, contact, calm, affectionate. Smiles. Babbles.
SINGLE MOMS WELCOME!
Not a whole lot of info on this Dumpling
Except that he is getting older, and looking more serious. But even his serious expression cannot hide his beauty. He is one handsome little man!
Can't you just get lost in those eyes!!
He needs a family to make him laugh again!!
Cyril The Great...waiting for ...you??
Other Teamwork children still waiting
Arina
Heath
Isaiah
Robert
Russell
Carina
Wyatt
Thanking the Village
Carina's account is now OVER 4000.00 by 4.00!!!! I have to admit, when I posted on Sunday and Carina's account didn't budge, I felt crummy, then a little silly for thinking people would just randomly donate money just because I asked them to. There was no giveaway, nothing to gain, I had nothing to offer.
But I kept hearing , ask again. Believe me I was hesitant. I mean no one really enjoys looking silly. And I think I've been there, done that enough, lol
But I sucked it up and listened to that little voice, and voila!
So now, I say thank you, to the Village, who doesn't need anything in return, to rally for an orphan. A village whose hearts just keep growing.
I truly love you guys!!!!
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And just this morning I found out one of our own villagers , Miss Jane has been nominated for Circle of Moms 25Top inspiring Families!!
And Miss Jane was also the last to know she was nominated and the contest is almost over:(
You see, Jane was busy traveling to the other side of the world to bring some much needed love to Orphanage 50. You can read about that on her blog here.
BUT first, please vote HERE!!!! Lets get her into the top 25 today!!! Piece of cake if we all vote. Look for her blog, Flight Platform Living, and vote! No signing in or signing up. Just hit the vote button and that's it!Couldn't be easier or quicker.
But I kept hearing , ask again. Believe me I was hesitant. I mean no one really enjoys looking silly. And I think I've been there, done that enough, lol
But I sucked it up and listened to that little voice, and voila!
So now, I say thank you, to the Village, who doesn't need anything in return, to rally for an orphan. A village whose hearts just keep growing.
I truly love you guys!!!!
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And just this morning I found out one of our own villagers , Miss Jane has been nominated for Circle of Moms 25Top inspiring Families!!
And Miss Jane was also the last to know she was nominated and the contest is almost over:(
You see, Jane was busy traveling to the other side of the world to bring some much needed love to Orphanage 50. You can read about that on her blog here.
BUT first, please vote HERE!!!! Lets get her into the top 25 today!!! Piece of cake if we all vote. Look for her blog, Flight Platform Living, and vote! No signing in or signing up. Just hit the vote button and that's it!Couldn't be easier or quicker.
Monday, March 5, 2012
I Can Feel It!!
Carina |
$8.85
That's it!!!!!
$8.85!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!
Thank you village!!!!!
Carina's mama are you out there???
Do you see what happened today???
Please, please go get her.
$104.00 More.. that's it!
I do believe this may be the day Carina's account hits $4000.00!!!
I'm so excited and thankful!
Little by little, that's all I ask, and things get done.
I know she will go home soon. She has to!!
I'm so excited and thankful!
Little by little, that's all I ask, and things get done.
I know she will go home soon. She has to!!
Me Again..
"Do not fear mistakes. You will know failure. Continue to reach out."
Benjamin Franklin
I had hope yesterday that $245.00 would find it's way into Carina's account. It didn't, in fact not one penny was added.
Benjamin Franklin
I had hope yesterday that $245.00 would find it's way into Carina's account. It didn't, in fact not one penny was added.
And I'm among the ranks of the people that did not donate yesterday. I just couldn't. I didn't have it to give.(but I am collecting change)
So I understand.
Today I still have that hope that $245.00 will find it's way into her account.
I believe when God calls you to advocate He also gives you just a drop of insanity.
If not, how could we pick ourselves up and go on, again and again.
How would we not just say , the hell with it. No one cares, no one listens.
And if nothing appears again today, than there is always tomorrow, and the next day and the next.
Of course, Carina doesn't have too many tomorrows left. Her April birthday is fast approaching and the present she will get will be a ride to an adult mental institution.
So if you could spare a few dollars, my insanity would greatly appreciate it. A water instead of that coffee, saves at least $1.50... I'll take it. Or buy the chicken instead of the roast, that saves a few $$, I'll take those too. There are so many ways to do something that will add up to $245.00
So I 'm taking Ben's advice and reaching out. I never would have been so bold in the past to do something like this. By this, I mean advocating for these beautiful little ones. I never would have voiced my opinion.
What if someone didn't agree with me? Or what if I offended someone??
HA! That's where the insanity comes in. Thank you God, because now I don't care!
If you are offended than you should also be ashamed, and if you don't agree, than stick around, maybe I can change your mind.
Spring is coming and Carina will be going. It's up to me/us as to where she goes. To a mental institution or home.
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Spring, The Season of Hope
Carina |
What will Spring mean for my Carina??
This?
Or this
Is this what Spring will mean to my precious girl??
Does Carina have any hope??
Without a family... the answer is no. She has no hope.
But with God all things are possible. With God there is hope...always
I want Carina to blossom like a spring flower. To smile, and laugh and lay in the sun and let it warm her. I want her to listen to the birds and look for life sprouting from the ground. I want her to fill her lungs with that sweet spring air.
I don't want her to be transferred and to suffer, and to give up hope! How can I let that happen?? I have to do whatever I can to keep her hope alive!
I love this little one. She consumes my thoughts. I check Reece's Rainbow numerous times a day. I rejoice for every child that finds their way to The MFFM page, but I can't help feeling a sadness when I realize my beautiful girl has not gotten noticed yet.
Will you notice her today? Will you share her picture, her link to Reece's rainbow. Will you donate to her account? Will you say prayer? Will you help Carina to have HOPE for this Spring?
Are you her HOPE?
Carina's account is very close to $4000.00. Maybe that will be the lucky number to bring her a family. Your two, five or ten dollars could be that hope today.
This is a Sharing Sunday Post
Sharing Sunday |
My New Follower
If you check my "Followers" you will see that I have 242. The newest one, number 242 is my Bella.
She has been begging for a blog for about a year now. So under the guidance of her blogger mother, yesterday she joined the ranks and is now a real, honest to goodness Blogger!!!
Bella is blogging at Bella's Adventures, and if I dare say so I think she's got the bug! The blogging bug.
Bella nagged me to death, requested last night that I put the word out, that she is now ready to receive a boat load of traffic ;)
So when you get a chance could you swing by and say hi to our fellow blogger, Miss Bella. And she has invited you all to "follow " her.
Computer time is getting harder and harder in this house...
She has been begging for a blog for about a year now. So under the guidance of her blogger mother, yesterday she joined the ranks and is now a real, honest to goodness Blogger!!!
Bella is blogging at Bella's Adventures, and if I dare say so I think she's got the bug! The blogging bug.
Bella
So when you get a chance could you swing by and say hi to our fellow blogger, Miss Bella. And she has invited you all to "follow " her.
Computer time is getting harder and harder in this house...
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