Friday, April 17, 2015
Cinderella didn't dance as much at the ball as Emilia Faith did at her very first Father /Daughter dance.
The night was MAGICAL!!
I found the puffiest dress in the word. A pale blue. She took my breath away.
Her shoes, unlike Cinderella's, fit her perfectly and were so comfortable that she was able to dance the night away in them and still make it home with both of them.
She was a little reluctant to sit for a photo shoot before the dance,and it showed...
But when her Prince Charming entered the scene her attitude quickly changed
And just like that , they were off.
And it's a good thing there were no spells involved with this fairy tale because Princess Emilia was out waaaay past her curfew. She arrived home sleepy, and still smiling.
As I put her to bed,the dreams were already forming in that beautiful little head of hers, of The One Enchanted Evening she had with her Daddy.
Monday, April 13, 2015
19 years ago I married a guy who really had no idea what he was getting into. Thank you Peter for not running away when you realized your Princess was really the Evil Queen. (but with a good heart)
It's been a hell of a ride. We have been through things I never imagined could even happen. Highest of highs and extreme lows.
We've had dreams come true and we've watch dreams shatter.
We've picked up the pieces and moved forward so many times...
Marriage is HARD. It's frustrating and leaves you frazzled!
But, it's worth it. Because I would never want to go through this life flying solo. When good things happen it's you I want to celebrate with,and when the shit hits the fan it's you I run to. You're my friend, my lover ,my confidant, my punching bag and all around much needed guy in my life.
You tolerate my weirdness with saint like patience.
19 years and counting.. there's no one else I'd rather tuck and roll through life with!
Happy Anniversary Peter!
Friday, April 3, 2015
What it means to most people is Spring! April is always a much anticipated month, especially after this Winter.
It means Easter. And a Holiday, school vacation and new life shooting up from a thawing ground. I was married in April. My anniversary used to be the most significant event the month of April brought with it.
But now, April fills me with a hidden sadness.
My Little Love was born this month.
Carina is in Russia. An orphan. Forgotten by all. Trapped there by a useless ban on Adoptions.
She was born in April. I don't know the day. So everyday, I wish her a Happy Birthday.
I know no one will celebrate her. There will be no cake, no gifts or even an extra hug. I doubt that whoever cares for her even knows when she was born or cares to know.
But there are two woman in this world who will be thinking about Carina on the same day this month.
Me and her birth mother.
I cannot imagine that she has forgotten the day her daughter was born. I have no idea the circumstances surrounding Carina's birth. Her mother was probably young and scared. Most likely she was advised by doctors that her child, born with Down syndrome, would be better off in an orphanage. Children like this don't "belong" in society as they will amount to nothing.
Maybe she longed to keep her... maybe she never looked back.
But she let her go. And I took Carina into my heart.
And there she will stay.. I've claimed her as mine. A spiritual adoption. One Putin has no say over. One I don't need the State to declare me fit for. No one wanted her but me, so I took her and she lives in my heart.
This Christmas I was gifted with a new photo of my girl.
She turns 7 this month. Four long years of longing for this baby girl.
April will never be the same for me. To most people, the ban on adoptions is all but a distant memory. Life goes on. New stories take precedence. The children get lost. Even more lost than they already were. But to those who love them, it's like it happened yesterday. We will never be able to forget. One day Russia will reopen, and they will come home. I believe that with my whole heart. But until then April will be thirty days of wondering.. is today her birthday?
Happy Birthday Baby Girl
Mama love you more...
Saturday, March 7, 2015
I guess I don't have to explain the title of this post, if you are even somewhat coherent you know the type of winter we have been having. It has snowed and snowed and snowed...
The calming effect snow usually has on me wore off sometime after the first 100 inches softly fell over us. That feeling soon changed to panic! How could the local grocery stores possibly be able to keep enough bread, milk and eggs on the shelves!! Rage has now replaced panic as my current state of mind as each impending snow storm is putting my sanity to the test.
The Robins flew in.. and I thought , there is hope!
That was a few storms back. Have not seen or heard them since. I fear the worst.
Also we lost our Fancy Bear Gerbil ,Gus Gus. And because he chose to kick the bucket when there was no less than 4 feet of snow on the ground he "Laid in State" for a few days as we tried to figure out what the hell to do with him. He was too big too flush and too good for the garbage. We decided to pack him on ice til the ground is visible (maybe by June) and give him a proper burial. So Gus Gus is wrapped in a beautiful glass jar in the snow on the deck til he can join the cat and various fish pets we have buried around the yard.
On to the humans
They're all fine and driving me crazy.
The girls are dancing, Bella is flipping and Andrew is still disgusted that we had only one boy.
We've been playing host family to Liv's friend Jorge, an up and coming dancer/choreographer from Philly, who will soon take the world by storm.
We love him and are trying to figure out how to keep him forever. Of course his real family might have a problem with that ;) He's a blessing and a joy who came to us at a time when we really needed a breath of fresh air. He really deserves his own post. I think he is expecting it, Soon... Soon Jorge!!! I promise!
And the star of the show,Emilia Faith... is still running things around here. Her boundless energy keeps us all exhausted, her beauty astonishes us, her appetite to learn is ferocious! She dances and sings and is living the life! She's also very naughty and spends a lot of time in time out...
She is loving school and working diligently on potty training both at school and home. We are trying the tag team method.
She is the Princess of Lippitt Elementary School. Loved by all. And patiently tolerated by the ones she chooses to bully... But, she is improving daily on her inappropriate contact with friends.
This has been a long and stressful winter. We have gotten through on faith, humor and Jorge..(we really love the boy)
Looking forward to spring, things that are green and warmer temps.
Friday, December 19, 2014
We are fast approaching the two year anniversary of a day I do not want remember but cannot forget.
On Dec 26th 2013 Putin closed Russia to Americans adopting. With a stroke of his pen he broke hearts, shattered families, took hope away from orphans, and to many Russian orphans handed over a death sentence.
One of my friends Katrina Morriss can never forget that day either. Her daughter Natasha is one of those countless orphans now stuck in Russia. Here in America she has a family who desperately longs for her. The future is unknown, unsettling and scary.
Katrina has never rested since Putin wrote into law the dismal future of all Russian orphans. She has fought for awareness and to keep the children of Russia in the spotlight. She refuses to let them slip into the darkness where they will be forgotten by everyone. Out of sight out of mind works for Putin but not for Katrina!
Below is a plea from Katrina. I can only ask that if you are reading this you please think about the beauties that had families, met their families and were anticipating their lives in America. And then because of one selfish, cold hearted leader, lost their dreams. Think about the moms and dads that held their sons and daughters promising to be back soon, only to be locked out forever. Please like Katrina's Facebook page. And for the love of all, remember the children. They are still there, families are still fighting for them. Please don't let them be forgotten.
In honor of Natasha's 9th birthday2 year anniversary of please join together with us to get 10,000 likes Parents United for Orphans FB page by end of year.
Our goal is for people aroundworld to come together to help children stuck in orphanages by providing information supporting groups that help children have better lives. We are begging government to bring about change for better continue to ask them to work with our government to allow remaining pipeline children to come home. If this is not possible, we pray children will speedily find loving homes in Russia that government will provide necessary support system for them.
Natasha was only 6 years old when a loving family met heragreed to adopt her. She has spent an extra 2 1/2 years in an orphanage because of most likely will spend rest of her life without ever knowing love of a family if changes are not made.
link to documentary FB page.
Saturday, October 11, 2014
I thought about posting some facts about Down syndrome , but you can google them in a second and have them all sorted out on the computer screen for you.
Facts and stats about health issues and life expectancy, delays and characteristics.
But you may have a hard time finding some other facts. Facts that aren't as widely known as the medical facts and all that other stuff that scares the crap out of people. I don't think it's fair that when you are expecting a child with Ds that you instantly feel fear and if you don't people think you are crazy. I was beyond scared for the last five months of my pregnancy. It was all unnecessary. I wish I had known some fun facts then.
Not all the facts are scary.
Down syndrome Fun Facts :
1. You are having a baby! Surprise! It's still a beautiful baby you are carrying!!!!
2. This baby will cry, and keep you up at night!!! YAY!
3. This little one will grab your heart so tight you will physically feel it in your chest!
4. You will laugh like you have never laughed before.
5. You are about to become a better person. You won't even know it's happening.
6. Your strength now rivals Wonder Woman's, in fact you could easily kick her ass (if you had too)
7. You will find yourself uttering one liners that have never been heard by other human beings before, such as.. "Emmie do not kiss the gerbils butt!"
8. Nothing will ever phase you again. No longer will you gasp at children who are ill behaved in public. You now walk by smugly, knowing your kid could top that kids tantrum with one leg tied behind her back .
9. Popsicle's will be an acceptable food for breakfast because you know you will NEVER leave the house if she doesn't get one!
10. A piece of heaven has been offered to you. Take it! Love and enjoy this gift every day of your life!! Not everyone is given a gift this precious. This child will open your eyes , and show you things hidden from the rest of the word. I kid you not!!!!
Tuesday, October 7, 2014
Holy Cow! What a week! So busy! Not a spare second to sit and write! I've got a minute now so I will catch up.
How about a story about Em and her new school?
She is in all day Kindergarten. Fully included.
She is ruling the roost and having a freaking ball. She is testing the waters of a new school, new kids and new teachers. She is not using her best behavior like in her old school. They are practicing "nice hands" with her. Apparently she is taking swings at her new little classmates and her teachers..
And knowing Em she's doing with a giggle and a twinkle in her eye.
When she's not hitting , she can be found throwing things and running like the wind around the classroom.
With my blessing she now has a designated "time out " spot.
Gotta love her!!
She also has a special friend named Tony.
You know the saying opposites attract? Well, apparently free spirits can become bosom buddies also.
She calls his name constantly and if you ask her if she likes Tony, she literally gushes and gets all silly.
She is smitten!!!!
She has to sit near him in school and they are using him to motivate her to be good! HA!
Yesterday her teachers were very concerned because Em would not eat. Not at snack , not at lunch and not at the second snack time. She wouldn't play outside and she was very clingy. She also wanted to sit with the weighted blanket and just tap her fingers on it. Poor Em they thought, she must be getting sick.
Could this have something to do with the fact that Tony left school early?????
Yeah, she was sick alright! LOVE SICK!
Ate like a horse when she got home and played all night. And of course talked about TONY!
Her first crush!
As I type this she is looking through her school papers , talking up a storm. And of course the only words I can understand are Ooooh, Tony!
Well, at least we have mastered the "T" sound !