Saturday, June 20, 2009

Emmie's Good


As I sit here this morning , everyone is asleep,it's just me and my sidekick Em, I count my blessings. This time of the year is always a little overwhelming for me. The end of the school year and the beginning of another summer. I cross the days off on the calendar and anticipate the end... the end to rushed mornings and missing shoes and undone homework. But with the end comes no more pre school, no more ducklings, with the end comes a seventh grader, a pre teen, my baby boy in school all day in September, Bella will be making her First Communion.All signs that they are moving forward. With the end , which is Tuesday the 23rd,comes a school mass to end another year at St Peter School. Yes, I will cry as I do every year. As I listen to the children sing. Their sweet voices fill the church, I will ask God as I do every year...please don't let me forget this moment. Which gets me to the blessings part, I didn't forget. I am counting my blessings because with every ending comes a new beginning.
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I am blessed because as I sit there Tuesday and weep about another year gone and my children growing older, I will be holding Emmie in my arms. I am blessed because my Emmie is good. She wasn't born with any health issues, which I find almost impossible to believe. As I have grown to love and care so much for all of my new friends in "blogland" I have come to realize just how lucky I am. I follow you daily, pray for you daily and simply worry about you daily. If someone doesn't post for a while I wonder if everything is alright.
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Emilia was our new beginning, she came to us when we needed her the most. She has taught me so much in such a short time. She has opened my eyes to her wonderful and beautiful world, a world I never would have considered myself lucky to be a part of. She has brought me to all of you, who I now cherish and love.
Emmie ended my old life. She forced me to see beauty where before I only saw sadness. To count my blessings, to consider myself lucky. I will forever worry about Emmie a little more than I worry about my other children. But the new beginning she has brought with her out weighs all the worry. As Olivia says, "she is my sun".

10 comments:

Emily said...

Oh my goodness... I am drying my tears. You said that just perfectly. I feel the same way you do. Life is just so beautiful. Little Justin just came to me so that I could see that. I enjoy following you in blogland and am thankful for all the support we give one another. Have a beautiful weekend!

Lacey said...

I just read the article were the family is sueing because if they would have known there little girl would be downs, they would have terminated. How can you look at your baby and say that. They are so beautiful and they teach us so much. I wouldn't change Jax for anything.

Denise said...

I couldn't agree with you more Steph....first of all I always consider Ella my little sidekick. Since my other kids are older (8 & 10) Ella is the one that I hang out with a their sporting events, school events etc. I love it!! I also agree with you about realizing how lucky you have been with Emmie's health. Although I am afraid that leukemia looms in our future, up to now, Ella hasn't had ANY medical issues that have required us to rush into the doctor or spend any time in the hospital. I think that is part of the beauty of blogland is to always make us realize our blessings even though the "typical world" may feel sorry for us. You just wrote this post so beautifully....thanks for my morning cry!!!

Heather said...

Thank you for your email.Great way to start my day ... at 6am!!Back from my run.Wanted to check in .Sensed your sadness but now I see that joy .. your "sun" shining through.Life is indeed beautiful ...

Have a great weekend my friend.

Cammie Heflin said...

Glad I stopped by what a beautiful family!

Monica Crumley said...

This is such a beautiful post. Emmie's eyes are so gorgeous in that top photo! I feel the same way... John Michael forced the end of my old ways and made me see the world with new eyes. It's so nice to meet you and other moms in blogland!

Rebecca said...

Beautiful! What a strong legacy little Emmie has brought to your family! Thanks for sharing such touching thoughts :>)

scrappy quilter said...

What a very special post. I needed to hear this today. We are going through some major changes and it's been a difficult day. Your little sweetie is just so precious. I love her smile.

Chris said...

Beautiful post...so glad that you are seeing the beauty that Emmie brings. No doubt about it, her smiling face will continue to brighten all of our days!

Lori said...

What a beautiful post - I can relate to your feelings exactly. I don't think I could make it through my day without Anna by my side...it is not hard to see God's goodness and grace shining through her.
I will be stopping by more often to check on your beautiful family!