Eight days away from blogging and what brings me back? A gift for Em. Beads! Wonderful, shiny, colorful,beads!! And might I add, Absolute Authentic Mardi Gras Beads, straight from Louisiana! Thank you April for sharing your treasure with us!!!
All decked out.
Emmie is delighted with her new found treasure.
Feels great on the hands too!
With all the sadness in blogland lately I have to admit I've had a heavy heart. I just couldn't bring myself to write about anything. Even WDSD came and went and there was silence at Daily Smiles. Bloggers Block? I don't know.
The old saying "When it rains it pours" is so very true. It's pouring in our lives right now.
I've been torn between posting about Em which is what this blog was created for, advocating for orphans and their families, which is what this blog has matured into, or just throwing in the towel.
I felt like I had begun to live three separate lives.
A happy mother of a special needs child, wanting to spread the joy of Down syndrome to everyone.
An advocate, for the ones with no voice, the meekest and mildest of all creatures.
A scared wife and mother trying to hold it all together, as the pieces just keep tumbling down.
I started this blog to share Em with the world, to hopefully help someone walking on the same path I am and to make it easier for them. I never expected it to become anything else. Then along came Reece's Rainbow and honestly how could it not become a place to advocate for these little ones. I guess what I wasn't ready for was the myriad of emotions that advocating would bring with it. I started to feel guilty for posting happy times with Em when there were families fighting for the lives of there children so far away. Then I felt I was overwhelming people by posting about orphans so much. I noticed that no one, or very few people, would even read the posts about the orphans. Throw all that together with a slightly crazed and immensely stressed out life at the moment, and I guess you have a recipe for disaster. I couldn't write. Not a single syllable. I tried, but I was a complete blank.
I've been hanging around FB where all you need is one line, and I'm kind of enjoying it. I've had FB for a while but never really got in to it. I think I like there.
But this is where my heart is, and I missed it. So pity party over! What this blog will NEVER be is a place to complain(well maybe once in awhile). This is my blog, my thoughts my words my heart. It's about my daughter with Down syndrome, my family, my beliefs, and my passions.
I will write what I feel is in my heart. I will not impose any guilt on myself, and I will not be offended if you do not read or comment on something. I cannot please everyone and that's not my goal.
If in any way you have been touched by something posted here, then hooray! If you look at people with Down syndrome differently because of Emmie than, Yippee!! If your heart is a little bigger and more open to adoption because of a Dumpling you read about here, than my heart is happy!! And if you have left here with a smile on your face, even just once, well... my goals have been exceeded!
And Daily Smiles is doing just what I want it to do.